The
Face Behind My Eyes
I cannot continue
in this state of horror. I have been afflicted with a malady, a
mental aberration so terrifying that I can see no relief save my own
demise. The continued torment and anguish has become unbearable. I
have finally deciphered the inscriptions from the site where all my
misery began. I cannot bear to endure this knowledge and will, in
the hopes of warning others away, commit this to paper before I end my
torment. I fear if I wait much longer I will completely lose control
of myself and this evil will be free once again in the world.
My sad tale begins
in 1934 in the Carpathian Alps. I was on expedition from the
Miskatonic University with a group of archeologists investigating
rumors of eldritch ruins found high in those grim reaches when the
face of a glacier had collapsed and revealed an archway that led deep into the
heart of those unnatural peaks.
We started out in a
state of great anticipation and excitement, expecting to perhaps
make our name in the annals of archeology for discovering some
unique remnant of a lost civilization. Fully equipped with the
latest gear and the best guides—one the actual discoverer of the
ruin—with high spirits.
All went well and
in less than a day we reached the entrance after departing the local
village on horseback as there were no roads in this area of the range.
The local villagers
had legends of some unspeakable evil residing within those peaks but
we dismissed it. The locals always have tales of evil in the ruins
no matter where in the world one goes.
On our first
approach to the archway we were struck by two things. One was the
immense size of the aperture and the other the unknown writing that
inscribed it.
As we stood at the
opening we could see it was no less than thirty feet in height and
half as wide. The inscriptions were vaguely familiar appearing to be
written in an ancient form of Cyrillic not used for many centuries.
Our first bit of
bad luck happened even before we entered. A loud crack was heard
overhead and a large icicle broke loose over our guide.
Looking up at the sound the guide, mouth agape, was struck by the ice
stalactite. It struck him in the open mouth and extended through him
while tearing his mandible nearly off, and exited through his back
just below the shoulder blades. He stood silently looking at us with
his jaw hanging by shreds of skin from his left cheek for several
seconds before collapsing to the ground, dead.
I had unfortunately
seen such savagery during the great war but several of our
expedition were unnerved and a few vomited at the sight.
This set the tone
for the entire exploration to the ruins.
We had started out
with a compliment of a dozen scientists and twice as many local men
to manage the pack animals and camp. We had the men wrap the body in
a tarp and sent it down the mountain with a man on horse back so the
family could properly inter it according to local customs.
We set up camp and
settled in for the night ,each of us reflecting on the terrible
accident of the afternoon. We planned to get an early start
exploring the ruins that had cost the discoverer his life.
The morning was
overcast and grim, dark and foreboding with the promise of severe
weather soon to break. We entered the arch which turned out to have
once been barred with thick wooded doors that had long since
crumbled away. Only the hardware was left to indicate their existence.
This, it was discovered was not so much a ruin but the entrance of a
series of caverns that had been worked to resemble great halls and
galleries.
We ventured slowly
into the first gallery and encountered the remains of an epic battle.
We were shocked by the sized of the combatants, considering our
first view of them was from a massive peal of thunder and a flash of
lightening that illuminated the entire chamber. What was
particularly startling was the number of the dead and fact it
appeared they were fighting to get in. Because of the cold and
dryness within the cavern more of the bodies were mummified than not.
Many appeared to have been burned and others seemed to have
literally been torn apart. But what was most unsettling was the
massive size of the remains. Most were eight to ten feet tall with
some as large as twelve feet. Although they resembled men they were
not. These were a different branch of evolution, no doubt related
to humanity but not of it. The skulls had double rows of teeth and
the hands six fingers each.
These appeared to
be the giants of legend and lore, spoken of even in the bible.
The number of the
fallen was astonishing, we estimated there were better than ten
thousand dead.
As we ventured
further in we reached the end of the battle. At the back wall of the
last gallery sat a creature on a throne. The throne looked to have
been wrought from a single enormous emerald.
Seated on this
throne was a creature not of this world. It was larger than the
largest of the fallen and we estimated it's standing height would
have been over twenty-five feet tall. It too had been mummified and
was something from which nightmares are made. Its head was like a
humans in shape but with the bottom half of the face a mass of
tentacles with a beaked mouth like that of a squid or octopus. Its
hands and feet were over sized with webbing and long claws. It was
dressed in golden armor and had a very large spear thrust through
it's chest. The giants too were dressed in exquisitely crafted armor
as though all parties concerned knew there would be no survivors so
they dressed in their finest for their last battle.
Although the giants
were fascinating the throned creature was the center of attention.
It was while we were setting up lights, powered by a small generator
we had brought along, the next fatality occurred. One of the
scientists slipped and fell on a sword that was pointing upward still
in the hand of a fallen warrior. This time the fatal wound was
through the neck at where the scapulars meet and due to the width of
the blade, severed the spinal column and separated the head.
We decided to take
our dead colleague to camp to prepare him for transport back to town
when we discovered the weather was a raging tempest with driving rain
and high winds. It was decided we'd stay in the caverns until the
storm abated.
I and another
professor of archeology, Professor Long, decided to spend the time
examining the strange creature on the throne. For some reason we
decided to try and remove the spear from the chest. This was no easy
task and it took all the strength of both of us to dislodge it. When
it finally came lose the creature made a discernible groan and a
green vapor seeped out of the wound. It caught Long full in the
face. I was lucky, or so it seemed at the time, to have fallen
backwards to the cavern floor six feet below and was spared all but
the tiniest of the vapor which spread quickly through the galleries
and affected everyone.
I was on the floor,
semi-conscious, due to the fall, and watched in a dream-like state as
the unbelievable events unfolded.
Everyone in the
cavern went mad and grabbed whatever weapon was handy and began
hacking each other to bits. This frenzy of murder only lasted a few
minutes before the last person alive eviscerated himself and fell to
the floor dead. At that point I lost consciousness.
The next thing I
remember was being carried to a tent in the rain by the locals
that were left in the camp with two of the scientists to prepare for
our return with artifacts from the ruin.
The storm had
abated to a light rain and I was transported to the village several
miles away where I lay in a fevered stupor for several days before
coming to my senses.
It was then I
discovered the full extent of death's visit upon my party. Of the 12
scientists who were on the expedition only myself and one other
survived. Fully twenty of the locals were dead. When the huge flash
of lightening illuminated the cavern it had struck the camp and
killed many including eighteen horses and a dog who had come along
with his master from the village.
Upon my recovery I
discovered the locals had decided the best recourse to contain the
evil they had told us lived in those mountains was to dynamite the
entrance closed and it was now buried under a huge overburden of
stone and ice. I had no choice but to return to the university
nearly empty handed. What was salvaged from the expedition was the
careful drawings of the writing on the cave entrance that the
professor who survived had made on that first afternoon from
extensive photographs he had taken. It was remarkable the film had
survived the storm and lightening strike but it had.
Professor
Booth-Ames, the photographer, had provided me with a set of drawings
of the writing and I was determined to decipher them.
I was never
completely well after the events of the expedition and soon after
began having dreams, nightmares really, of the thing in the cavern.
It would appear in my dreams very close to me as though I was looking
in a mirror from a few inches away. I tried to ignore them as they
would happen only every fortnight or so.
Meanwhile I
endeavored to unravel the writings. Finally with the use of several
rare books on dead Eastern European languages I started to make some
little progress.
Unfortunately the
closer I got to the solution the more frequent and severe the
nightmares. The frequency was now so often that I feared sleeping.
The face now spoke to me in some inhuman dialect that although I
could not understand the words I could grasp that it intended to
possess my body and bring its evil back into the world through me.
Thus I have become
the wreck I am today. My worst fears are true, the dreams are
not just nightmares, but real. Some evil monster is trying to take my
body from me and destroy humanity to bring once more its nightmare
reign back into to the world.
Today the final
piece fell into place. I finally completed the translation. It
reads thus:
“Here lies an
evil from beyond the stars and outside of time. Do not enter these
caverns. We have sacrificed the last of our race to put it to rest
here. Do not awaken it.”
I understand now
what I must do. In some inexplicable way the green mist contained
the essence of this creature and some small part of it lives within
me and is trying to gain control. I must not allow that to happen.
I only leave this journal to warn others to never open that cavern,
never seek to investigate those sinister, evil galleries.
The police were
called to the garret of professor James Whyte on Oct. 13, 1937, after
the landlady reported the smell of something dead and not having seen
the Professor for more than a week. Upon entering the suite they
discovered the decomposing body of the professor hanging from the
rafters, a pile of note and papers burned in a basin and a journal
with the tale above written within. One of the coroners who
autopsied the body noted that when the body cavity was opened there
was a small wisp of green vapor released that drifted out through
the ventilation.
(c) Rick Carufel 2013